Is there an answer for everything?

Sometimes I’m not fine. And sometimes I can’t explain why. It’s not that I’m saying I’m depressed, it’s just that there are days where it feels like there’s a dark cloud following me around.

I don’t want to face anyone, talk or be around people. All I want is to be in my own company, maybe lie in bed all day.

That might sound bad like there’s something wrong, but this is just-some days.

It seems that saying I’m not fine but can’t explain why isn’t good enough so it’s easier just to pretend when asked.

Why is it there always has to be some kind of explanation? Why does there have to be a reason for feeling low?

Today is one of those days.

I’m not depressed. I’m just not feeling so high and happy today. Is that wrong? Why should it be wrong? Why can’t that just be acceptable? Without someone uttering the word “hormonal”. Putting down how I feel, and the justification of that.

I’m not the type of person who likes to confide in people, share they’re deepest thoughts and look for support. A lot of the time when I do share things it’s either I’ve forgotten myself or I’ve just scratched the service of what’s really going on in my head.

Trust is a hard thing for me. I feel like it’s just easier when you rely on yourself. Push myself forward, deal with life myself and get by on my own accord. I have a wonderful family who are there for me, and I do talk with them, but even they can’t always be the ones I turn to.And even they don’t always accept the lack of reason for a mood.

I’m not really sure what I’m doing here. Funny how I can say all of this here and not to the people in my life that are closest to me.

I guess in my head I’m the only one reading this. After all I haven’t really told anyone I have a blog.

Sorry if this feels like I’m bringing the mood down. But honesty is real and I do not want my blog to be a place where things are sugar coated. This is life after all, my life. I’d consider myself an optimistic person, but everyday can’t be great.

I guess that’s one reason I’ve written this post and the other is because maybe someone will read this and hopefully understand what I mean.

Here’s to a happier tomorrow.

What are you looking forward to this weekend? Let me know in the comments!

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Blogging.

Hello Lovelies.

Happy Sunday. I’m feeling creative today so I really wanted to get the laptop out and get typing.

I had this conversation earlier with my brother about blogging. He made the comment that blogging has become almost annoying as today, everyone and their mother call themselves bloggers.

This is something that put me off blogging for ages, and still sometimes does as I am reluctant to tell anyone that I have a blog.

You see I never like doing what everyone is doing. I like to do my own thing, be my own person in so many ways.

But I really like the idea of blogging. I love bloggers who pour their hearts out to their online readers. I love the opportunity of connecting with others across the world whom I have shared interests. I love that it’s a place where you can literally do/write anything.

The thing I don’t like is the way blogging is perceived. It’s not exactly a respected hobby/profession.

I’ve also found it hard to even figure out what I want to do with my blog. I’m not really sure which genre it follows or what type of things I want to talk about. To me my blog is still new and I’m still figuring out how this all works.

I know I want to bring content that causes people to think more about something and chat about something new. I’d love to build a great discussion in the comments section. I know I’ve uploaded posts about “the ideal summer” or “DIY Facial scrub” or even a couple shopping posts, but looking at them now I know they aren’t things I want to share here.

So sorry if you enjoyed them, there won’t really be any more.

What I imagine my blog to be is like a magazine. Full of articles regarding different topics,basically human interest pieces and real news.

I really don’t know how long I’ll last here, maybe I’ll keep going for years and maybe this will be the last post. (But probably not though) 🙂

I really want to be a sort of Carrie Bradshaw type. I just want to type out a post as the thoughts come to my mind. Real life pondering from an 18 y/o Irish girl. Honesty and definitely realism.

I don’t care about the stats or the idea of making this into a business. I’m just here to speak my mind and explore my passion for writing.

Now that we’re into the second half of the year I’m going to consider this a fresh start for my blog. Expect the same but I suppose a little different also 🙂

-G

 

Inspiration vs. Originality

Hello Lovelies.

Today’s topic of discussion is creativity and digital influencers.

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So in the age of the bloggers and vloggers, instagrammers and the youtube famous the issue of creativity;  we’re more often now seeing up and coming creators echo the works of the greater more settled digital influencers.

First of all, up until 5 years ago (in my opinion) blogging wasn’t really a thing. It  certainly wasn’t at the level of popularity it is now.. As for vlogging, well, ‘vlogs’ were actually referred to as ‘follow me around’ videos.

Now that the road has been paved, more and more (including myself) have decided to bring their own voice to the growing circle.

But as is always the case with creativity, sometimes the writers block monster can pop up and desperation kicks in. Imagine a tumbleweed rolling past in your brain, representing a lack of ideas.

You’re stumped. Ya got nothing.NIL. Squat.Nada…    (Ok I think you get the point.)

It’s so easy to look to other outlets for inspiration, and get ideas that aren’t exactly truly yours.

On the other-hand, it can also be laziness. Sometimes bloggers/vloggers see another get great success from one post or video or a certain use of editing or music and wham bam! It’s ‘hey that works, guess I’ll do it too’.

A lot of the time people want views. Hey I have a blog I get it. But seriously. I don’t think you’ll get anywhere by mimicking the work of another. Think about it. They got where they are because THEY DID SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

This idea of inspiration vs. originality came to me when I saw a twitter convo take place during the week between a few youtube vloggers.

The topic was youtuber Casey Neistat whose channel has grown by the millions in just a few years. Neistat is very popular for his impeccable, creative and stunning videography skills that produce the most beautiful raw footage. (And also his relaxed cool guy persona)

If you’re into vlogging he is your go-to for motivation and inspiration. However, others have also tried to imitate the youtubers vlogging style from music to angles to edits for their own road to success.

The argument unfolded when fellow youtube vlogger, Steve Booker, called out those who seem to be copycats of Neistat and how disappointing it is. But another twitter user felt Booker’s tweet actually had the potential to negatively affect others who might be considering starting a vlog channel or who are new vloggers.

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Here the conversation unfolds in the following tweets by Booker, Neistat, and another vlogger; George Benson, as well as other fans of the youtubers and twitter users.

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Neistat, who Ivell is actually a fan of, didn’t agree with his point that Booker’s tweet might dissuade other vloggers, felt that copycats ruin youtube.

In my opinion, he has a point. Because copying is pointless. What would people watch your videos when they’ve already got a source for that style content from another well-established channel. The same goes for blogs.

I try to be as original as I can, but I will acknowledge that some of my posts are similar to other pages.

It’s hard as creators to always be unique, Be you not someone else. But sometimes when you really idolise someone, or love what their doing you just want to hop on that trend and get going yourself.

The important thing to remember is that we all bring something different. The internet is a big place and there’s room for all of us.

Success takes time. But you won’t get far if you don’t work in your own style.

You were born an original, so why die a copy?

Love that quote. *Not mine, but I always see it on pinterest.

Here’s to those creative juices flowing! 🙂

-G xo