Is there an answer for everything?

Sometimes I’m not fine. And sometimes I can’t explain why. It’s not that I’m saying I’m depressed, it’s just that there are days where it feels like there’s a dark cloud following me around.

I don’t want to face anyone, talk or be around people. All I want is to be in my own company, maybe lie in bed all day.

That might sound bad like there’s something wrong, but this is just-some days.

It seems that saying I’m not fine but can’t explain why isn’t good enough so it’s easier just to pretend when asked.

Why is it there always has to be some kind of explanation? Why does there have to be a reason for feeling low?

Today is one of those days.

I’m not depressed. I’m just not feeling so high and happy today. Is that wrong? Why should it be wrong? Why can’t that just be acceptable? Without someone uttering the word “hormonal”. Putting down how I feel, and the justification of that.

I’m not the type of person who likes to confide in people, share they’re deepest thoughts and look for support. A lot of the time when I do share things it’s either I’ve forgotten myself or I’ve just scratched the service of what’s really going on in my head.

Trust is a hard thing for me. I feel like it’s just easier when you rely on yourself. Push myself forward, deal with life myself and get by on my own accord. I have a wonderful family who are there for me, and I do talk with them, but even they can’t always be the ones I turn to.And even they don’t always accept the lack of reason for a mood.

I’m not really sure what I’m doing here. Funny how I can say all of this here and not to the people in my life that are closest to me.

I guess in my head I’m the only one reading this. After all I haven’t really told anyone I have a blog.

Sorry if this feels like I’m bringing the mood down. But honesty is real and I do not want my blog to be a place where things are sugar coated. This is life after all, my life. I’d consider myself an optimistic person, but everyday can’t be great.

I guess that’s one reason I’ve written this post and the other is because maybe someone will read this and hopefully understand what I mean.

Here’s to a happier tomorrow.

What are you looking forward to this weekend? Let me know in the comments!

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My First Draft

(Or maybe the third 😀 )

Hello lovelies! 

(eek I can’t believe I’m doing this again!)

So I’m going to be honest and admit that this is not the first time I have blogged, it’s actually the third. I started, well you wouldn’t even call it a blog because it only consisted of one post, but about two years ago. I never told anyone and it wasn’t a big deal, just me being bored and writing about whatever was on my mind. Then last year I got the great idea to start a blog about my personal style. Long story short I didn’t really commit to it and I just abandoned it all together after a few months. I just wasn’t happy with the pictures I was using or what I was writing about.

I really want it to be different this time. This blog isn’t going to necessarily be a fashion or my personal style. Although, there will be a few posts because I do love fashion and I take pride in dressing well so I would like to document some of that here but I don’t want this to just be a personal style blog. Mainly because there are already so many amazing ones out there already.

This blog is just going to be me. My writing. My thoughts. My adventures. My life. I know that sounds really narcissistic but I’m trying to sound vain I just mean that I’ll be writing about my life experiences or what’s going on in the world that I’m interested in. This sounds very broad I know but I suppose the truth is I still don’t yet really know what kind of a blog this will be, I think I’ll just learn as I go along.

I hope you follow me along as I try to figure out what to do with my life, what to do with my hair, where to go on my next adventure and try and look like I have my life together when really I’m the awkward chick who well just always acts awkward.

xo Georgia