We all want to have people that stand by us; make us laugh; create memories of drunken nights out with; travel with and above all just make life more enjoyable.
Each friendship will add something new to your life. You’ll learn something new about yourself and about people/life in general. You’ll gain new experiences and above all you’ll grow as a person,because we can always learn things from one another.
There are also the friendships that fail. The ones that just didn’t make it. And this I know a lot about.Unfortunately.
In the last two years I have really been let down by people I thought I could count on. What hurt the most was that I knew I had been giving the friendships so much effort. I was there for them.But the same wasn’t done for me.
Recently I was very hurt by a person I thought would never. I don’t want to go into detail but I will tell you that it was a serious falling out over absolutely nothing (significant), I was disrespected and hurt.
What I learnt from this was that I don’t need this sort of friendship in my life. I realise now that the effort I was making was wasted because this friendship didn’t add anything positive to my life. The old me though, definitely would have been bothered about this for ages.
I’ve also drifted apart from a lot of people. I used to get really bothered when I didn’t speak to/hear from people in ages and if it looked like we might be growing a part. I’d try to push our friendship back together. It’s good to make an effort, it’s important to be active in your friendships but I’ve learned that sometimes (a lot) I need to just let go of these people.
I’m sick of being let down. If you’re my friend then I’ll do what I can to be a good friend. And yeah I give second chances. But I’m not going to let myself be burned over and over again because you know what I deserve better.
On the other side, I recently got in contact with someone who used to be my best friend. And I mean BEST friend. The issues in this friendship were that I neglected some of my other friendships and I’m not proud of some of my behavior. But here’s the thing. Those things were in my control. SO… after a year out of a bad environment (all-girls school), a year of new people and a year of maturity I’ve realised that I’m not quite the same as I was and she probably isn’t either. So maybe it’s time for a second chance?
So the girl I thought I shouldn’t be friends with is the person I want to get to know again and the girls who told me not to go back there “that I deserved better” turned out to be the ones to let me down the most.
I’m moving on from the childish nature some people express. I’m ready to go back to college and start fresh. I’m going to put myself out there even if I’m really nervous and scared of trusting people and being let down again, but I’m going to try anyway. I’m going to go try new things and just loosen up and little and enjoy myself.
Here’s to being done with the bitches and making REAL friends.